It's been too long...

We are blessed, be grateful and love. To all the shitty things, this too shall pass.

Here's a song

A New Day Has Come by Celine Dion

A new day...ohhhh
A new day...ohhhh

I was waiting for so long
For a miracle to come
Everyone told me to be strong
Hold on, and don't shed a tear

Through the darkness and good times
I knew I'd make it through
And the world thought I had it all
But I was waiting for you

Hush, now
I see a light in the sky, (oh),
It's almost blinding me
I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it feel my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new new sun...
A new day has come

Where it was dark now there's light
Where there was pain now there's joy
Where there was weakness, I found my strength
All in the eyes of a boy

Hush, now
I see a light in the sky, (oh),
It's almost blinding me
I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it feel my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new new sun...
A new day has...

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears
Let it feel my soul and drown my fears
Let it shatter the walls for a new new sun...
A new day has come

Hush, now
I see a light in your eyes
All in the eyes of a boy

I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love

I can't believe
I've been touched by an angel with love

Hush, now
(A new day)
Hush, now
(A new day)

Wow...time flies

Dayumm, it's been a little less than a month and I'm finally back at school! The holidays were nice and mellow, skiing, chilling, being stoked on life in general. Honestly, looking at the word life, it's so broad, but it's definitely only what you make of it, nothing more, nothing less. Perspective has been so damn important for me in the last bit, definitely looking into the future, setting myself up for it and all that jazz. Moving forwards with life feels good, I'm definitely more appreciative of optimism.

Soo school, this should definitely be a great semester, and then summer jobbage and perhaps Camp of Champions in July. I'm so stoked on skiing right now, learning to fall and get back up and throw down 6 times as hard is a tough lesson but definitely a worthwhile one. I'm super excited about going to Kicking Avi conditions are pretty sketch right now though, gotta be careful. Speaking of meeting new people, it can be tough, but I'm definitely trying. Filming for the BHSc Movie definitely helped me meet a lot of cool people in the BHSc program. I lucked out and got cast as one of the main characters (Sarah Connor) in our spoofish movie of Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles. 3 days of filming, fun and friends. gooood stuff.

Smiling for the sick pow and sunny days :D

YARRRR

I have decided that when I am cranky, I am going to be a pirate.

Anyways, I am so utterly bored right now, I have been at the university for 7 and a 1/2 hours already. I'm stuck here for another 3 and a 1/2 until my Math final. My dad wouldn't let me go home in between because he said the roads are so shitty I would probably have trouble getting back to the university. Honestly though, 13 hours at the university is a little excessive. Ohhhh well. May as well entertain myself by studying for my final.

So the ski trip to Lake Louise that was supposed to happen tomorrow is being called off because a) AS decided to cut off a bit of his finger and get stitches and b) people are afraid of the cold (come on people if you're really that afraid of the cold, pick a more sensible sport). I will end up skiing at C.O.P. tomorrow I guess, alone, seshing the park, yet again. Goal: 5s nailed by the end of this season. RM thinks I can do it so I know I can :D It would also be nice to get some more rail skills and spin in the pipe. Eh whatever.

So, after my last final tonight I am free until January 12th O_O woot. anyways, now bored and hungry, going to go grab a bite to eat.

It's freezing

Holy bjeebs it's freezing out. All the snow is absolutely gorgeous. Snow angels, fucking love them, I wish I could be a snow angel, so sparkly and everyone likes them :P whatever...

It's been a while since I last posted. I had a good chat with DW today about RM and I, it's so hard sometimes, but I'm really hoping it's going to work out. Much love <3

School, facking hell, one paper, two more exams and I can hit the pause button, go shred with some friends, get inked. YES I'm getting a tattoo, finally, after about 3 years, finally coming into fruition, I have an appointment for Thursday. I'm standing up for myself! This should be interesting. Funny thing is, last thing I'm worried about is the pain, but that's the first thing that anyone asks me about, the pain, won't it hurt? Eh even if it does, I'm sure it's well worth it.

Looking forward to the holidays, spending time with the people I love and remembering the worth of life. YES!

First Turns!

JEA!!! I'm so stoked! Went skiing for the first time this season with RM at Lake Louise on Wednesday. You have no idea how much of a shit eating grin I had the whole two hours. It was snowing out in the mountains which was amazing. Yep, I drove (yes I finally ran off and got my driving test done and passed) 3 hrs in total to ski for 2 hours, but what can I say, it was definitely worth it :) The three days with RM were absolutely mint as well, definitely had a blast but I already miss him :(

I got my COP season's pass finally, pretty stoked on that, except the picture on it sucked, yet again. School is good, finally done midterms, charging headfirst into finals soon, it should be interesting. Aight gotta go dive into some homework, peace.

SNOWWWWW!!!!!

well...more like sleet, but I am stoked! The ski season can't come fast enough. I think this has been the most unbearable offseason I've had so far.

Gotta bust through this writer's block deal

Well it's seven fucking thirty in the morning, I'm running on adrenaline and sitting in the Health Sciences Centre at the Foothills hospital wondering if the powers that be are going to strike me down today, or give me the nod of approval. If you are wondering if why I am in a semi frightful state right now, it's because I have a presentation to give at 9am or so, the biomedical perspective on obesity, just facking lovely! I'm not going to bitch about my group or the work we did because it's probably a little too late to do so. Also I can't because I'm stuck with them for another 3 presentations. I am supposed to meet with my group at 8am to go over our presentation and do last minute preparations, but yay for Calgary transit, oh so reliable, decides to get me here half an hour early.

Ah so it seems as though I have fallen off the map or something of late. Which is partially true, university is nothing at all what I expected, which is not saying much because I don't think I really came into this whole fiasco with any preconceived ideas about what I was about to experience, good and bad at the same time. School isn't killing me, waiting for the snow is though, fall has become the unbearable season standing like a big ugly troll between me and skiing. Not to long ago I got called up to COP to register for another year of teaching, I can't believe this will be my 6th year teaching, where has the time gone? I know I will definitely miss MT driving us up to the hill on Thursdays and Fridays. DD has moved back to Holland for medical school, congrats to her, I know how much she hates Canada.

Sooo, since I last posted, shit happened that probably shouldn't have, feelings got hurt, people got bitter (or more bitter), upset and angry. Hey, it's life. What can I say. I'm not too into dragging out and reliving the past because it's going to hold me back from moving forwards to achieve things that I want to achieve and ultimately be happy. Some say that forgiveness is the greatest gift you can give someone, but I find it hard to give this gift, even though I've received it in the greatest sense of the word, thanks EM. I hate when shit is taken for granted because it makes everyone look like a douche, the person who is putting them self out there, and the person who is being ignorant. Ohhhh happiness that elusive emotion. Speaking of happiness, I had probably the two happiest days of my life so far on Friday and Saturday, I can't remember why, but I just remember being oh so happy. Then it crashed, it all crashed to hell on Sunday and now it's starting to level out again.

Let's seeee, ah, RM is coming to visit for a few days during my reading days in November, I'm super stoked about that because things are going really well between us, not saying that there weren't any giant speedbumps. It's crazy to think it's been a year and some. Still no rush to define whatever we're doing though, and that's not really concerning because...I'M HAPPY! yeeeeee

Haha anyhoo. I'm finding that I like university a lot more than high school, no drama, people are chill because they have their shit together (well for the most part). The environment is also a lot better for me, I can choose who i want to be around so I can stay calm, happy and unstressed. As terrible as this is going to sound but IB helped, I think once you've been hit over the head with a brick that hard (no I'm not talking about that shitty ass history text book), everything seems less daunting, because you can say "It's been shittier" and move on and just get it done. I'm not gonna lie though, there are people that I do miss from high school, you know who you are ;)

Aight well it's 7:55am, gotta peace to go find my group. Wish me luck. And much love to everyone, because there just ain't enough in this world <3