I figured I might post once more before I leave for Vancouver/Alaska likely on Saturday or Sunday. It's been a while since I last posted so I'll go in chronological order from the last time I posted.
RM came to visit me; I always love it when he comes to visit, just so nice to be around him, savor every moment. All I can say is, I'm so grateful to have him in my life, and I can't ask for anything more because I've never connected so well both emotionally and physically with a guy. As cheesy as it sounds, when two people can’t get enough of each other, they make whatever effort is necessary. However, every time we say bye until next time, it gets harder and harder, like tears hard. At which point he does the adorable kiss my forehead and hug me thing, which usually makes me cry more. It’s not always easy, the goodnights and “I miss yous”, but it’s so worth it. Looking back on everything that has happened between us over the last year never fails to bring a shit eating grin to my face. As difficult and frustrating as it is sometimes being so far apart, I'm not going to push anything, one step at a time, no rush :)
On the other hand I had to totally cut off TK because he dove headfirst into something he knew nothing about and asked me to be his gf, I shafted him, still managed to call me and text me several times a day. So I ended up snapping like a fucking twig and laying it out to him and told him not to contact me at all, and that if I wanted to contact him I would, which I probably won't for a long time. I’m not very happy with TK for this whole thing, which is causing me to avoid all Shad reunions.
Went to a party with DP on Saturday, it was fun. Very interesting. Met some chill people. One thing I'll never understand is cheating on your significant other. There was a guy there that was involved with this girl who has a bf in
Being forced to take drivers ed for insurance cut, very very dry, aced the classroom portion test. Scheduling in car sessions with the instructor tomorrow, apparently he is foreign and is quite difficult to understand. This worries me, communication is important. Thanks mom for giving me split second notice that my father needed to be picked up and swerving onto the
I still haven’t started packing…wow I’m good at procrastinating.
When I get back from Vancouver/Alaska, I'm hoping to have a bit of a bash because a whole bunch of people are going away for University. It would be nice to see everyone before they go off. Timing might suck though because people are leaving at different times. I'm hoping maybe the 24th will work.
On another note, I'm finding it very difficult to sleep lately, I haven't been able to sleep until about 4-5am everyday and then I will get up at 11am and be incredibly confused. I hope I can fix this before I leave for vacations. Ah I got my formal acceptance, good stuff. I still have to figure out for sure if I should drop my first year English course because I have transfer credits for it at this point in time, because I don't want to drop it, and then find out I wasn't supposed to. I have to remember when I'm in
It might be a while until I post next so I leave you with an amazing song recommended to me by my awesome dj friend :)
Feather (Feat. Cise Starr & Akin From Cyne)
Light as a feather when I'm floating through
reading through the daily news
measuring the hurt within the golden rule
centimeters in ether I'm heating the speaker
Motivational teacher with words that burn people
Seeing the headlines lined with discord and
see the genocide or the planet in uproar
Never good
The rules of paradise are never nice
The best laid plans of mice and men are never right
I'm just a vagabond with flowers for Algernon
The average joe who knows what the fuck is going on
Its the hope of my thoughts that I travel upon
Fly like an arrow of god until I'm gone
So
Drifting away like a feather in air
letting words take me away from the hurt of this mess
So I'm keeping the vertical forever elevator
Riding the escalator to the something that is greater
So I'm drifting away like a feather in air
letting my soul take me away from the hurt and dispair
So I'm keeping the vertical forever elevator
Riding the escalator to the something that's greater
Taking chances, we're tap dancing with wolves
in an ice arena out there deep in the woods
of Arizona. And some be -ah
Lifes ironic ain't it trying to be Dalí when I rice in real life
I paint it vivid, habitat, crazy insane
Watching propaganda 6 o'clock news and
insane coaches clash, war, black folk and white trash
then rebel in the sniper's base that might crash
Dash to millennium and million miles of running
at the speed of now but I don't return gunning
Rambo style gung ho child gunning
ammo, *Blaow*, two times loud stunning
Stunning - When it hit ya, lift ya right off the earth
like, hey yo, take ya back right to birth - and
Niggas wonder why. They might wonder why this shit might happen, but it does.
They go
Drifting away like a feather in air
letting words take me away from the hurt of this mess
So I'm keeping the vertical forever elevator
Riding the escalator to the something that is greater
So I'm drifting away like a feather in air
letting my soul take me away from the hurt and dispair
So I'm keeping the vertical forever elevator
Riding the escalator to the something that's greater
Treat you better than me cause that's the heavenly key
to unlock the inner strength where my essence will be.
It's the knowledge of self understanding of the things around me that becomes the wisdom that I need.
Living this life to the best of my ability
Channeling energy to my thoughts until you see my dream.
Remember me because my pros remain gold
I got the gift to gab like this pimps in cangols(???)
It never ends, I keep it rolling it like a cypher.
The first cave man bringing fire.
Innovating it higher
to blast mistakes I raise the stakes
It's double or nothing in this vacuum space
I will survive the avant of time, the cryer, the fucker, who the hide
I'm alive for pride and
I drove the Chevy to the levy but the levy was dry
Singing this will be the day that I die.
