Well it's seven fucking thirty in the morning, I'm running on adrenaline and sitting in the Health Sciences Centre at the Foothills hospital wondering if the powers that be are going to strike me down today, or give me the nod of approval. If you are wondering if why I am in a semi frightful state right now, it's because I have a presentation to give at 9am or so, the biomedical perspective on obesity, just facking lovely! I'm not going to bitch about my group or the work we did because it's probably a little too late to do so. Also I can't because I'm stuck with them for another 3 presentations. I am supposed to meet with my group at 8am to go over our presentation and do last minute preparations, but yay for Calgary transit, oh so reliable, decides to get me here half an hour early.
Ah so it seems as though I have fallen off the map or something of late. Which is partially true, university is nothing at all what I expected, which is not saying much because I don't think I really came into this whole fiasco with any preconceived ideas about what I was about to experience, good and bad at the same time. School isn't killing me, waiting for the snow is though, fall has become the unbearable season standing like a big ugly troll between me and skiing. Not to long ago I got called up to COP to register for another year of teaching, I can't believe this will be my 6th year teaching, where has the time gone? I know I will definitely miss MT driving us up to the hill on Thursdays and Fridays. DD has moved back to Holland for medical school, congrats to her, I know how much she hates Canada.
Sooo, since I last posted, shit happened that probably shouldn't have, feelings got hurt, people got bitter (or more bitter), upset and angry. Hey, it's life. What can I say. I'm not too into dragging out and reliving the past because it's going to hold me back from moving forwards to achieve things that I want to achieve and ultimately be happy. Some say that forgiveness is the greatest gift you can give someone, but I find it hard to give this gift, even though I've received it in the greatest sense of the word, thanks EM. I hate when shit is taken for granted because it makes everyone look like a douche, the person who is putting them self out there, and the person who is being ignorant. Ohhhh happiness that elusive emotion. Speaking of happiness, I had probably the two happiest days of my life so far on Friday and Saturday, I can't remember why, but I just remember being oh so happy. Then it crashed, it all crashed to hell on Sunday and now it's starting to level out again.
Let's seeee, ah, RM is coming to visit for a few days during my reading days in November, I'm super stoked about that because things are going really well between us, not saying that there weren't any giant speedbumps. It's crazy to think it's been a year and some. Still no rush to define whatever we're doing though, and that's not really concerning because...I'M HAPPY! yeeeeee
Haha anyhoo. I'm finding that I like university a lot more than high school, no drama, people are chill because they have their shit together (well for the most part). The environment is also a lot better for me, I can choose who i want to be around so I can stay calm, happy and unstressed. As terrible as this is going to sound but IB helped, I think once you've been hit over the head with a brick that hard (no I'm not talking about that shitty ass history text book), everything seems less daunting, because you can say "It's been shittier" and move on and just get it done. I'm not gonna lie though, there are people that I do miss from high school, you know who you are ;)
Aight well it's 7:55am, gotta peace to go find my group. Wish me luck. And much love to everyone, because there just ain't enough in this world <3
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